Take Me Home....

Lights flash and my body moves to the music,

I feel the fierceness of the ocean, my hips are like waves.
I can't control my body, it moves to your beat.
I look up at eviL and I'm lost in the rhythm Live creates.
Record for record the music enters your veins!
Now I'm drowning in your musical ocean, I'm lost in the sea of dancers.
Behind your eyes, I can see the pieces that make up me.
You have pierced my impermeable heart, burring yourself in my warmth;
loosing my soul to your kiss, the stars are complete in my sky.
Underneath your feet, heaven moves.
When the sun dies we come to life and in the moonlight,
I am resurrected by the sweet fragrance that is your flesh.
As we walk in the shadow of the moon,
paradise is beneath our feet.
You are etched forever in my eyes.
I can see you with my palms,
these mental scars of love will never fade.

unable to comprehend

the lovers' yearning has ceased.

as I light my cigarette, questions float on the clouds,
the world is made up of shadows that dance in the crisp air;
laughter is carried on the breeze.
The moon has spoken on this night,
he's dropped his modest veil.
i tell my pillow lies, and she whispers them into my dream.
blackness from within creeps up my throat.
I try to speak, but love suffocates my tongue.
You smother me with your kiss,
our tumultuous passion echos in the wind.
the colors of our souls melt into one,
my life's breath finds refuge in your heart.
Committing this sin, i obliterate myself.
The world is naught; seeking triumph
in our love song.
Lover, i whisper in ecstasy;
hide me in your dreams, and keep me...
in your memories.

walk on water

rip out these veins of sadness, that are deep within me.
rid me of her cancer, she eats away at my soul.
i'm drowning in the blood of this evil,
open me up, let it drain.
let the vicious circle gather round me,
let the words tainted with sorrow flow out my icy veins.
let my flesh be painted blu,
let the disdain in my heavy heart dissipate.
when it's over, i'll want to shed my skin,
i'll want to be someone else.
when i wake, let me be somewhere else.
let the scars be faint.

i can't wash you from my skin,

i can't erase you from under my fingertips.

i can't wipe away the kiss,

i can't rid the scent of us from under my nose.

unsatisfiable quench of desire.

i've come undone yet forever bound

Journey

Sitting on the edge of the moon
lost in the fog of life,
nothing seems easy,
nothings seems right.
Now the waves are around me,
I'm swallowed by my sea,
I become a bird, and now I fly free.
With the touch of his hand,
my wing he's clipped,
from who's cup of life do I now sip?
Spill me out to find myself,
I'm a frozen puddle on this ice shelf.
Drip by drip I'm gaining ground,
where have I been? who have I found?
Incessant cycles, what have I done,
I've lost myself, is this fun?
With the ground beneath my feet, I run,
where did the moon go? Where is the sun?
My blood is rushing, I can't catch my breath!

Why am I chasing me and where is Death?
Into me, Death breathes life.
I tear my skin, cut the rest out with her knife.
Back on earths plane is where I must be,
Lamenting the pain, how much can one life stain?
In a Neptunian of people, lost in the beat,
dancing to the rhythm, can't stop my feet.
Untying my binding, he's setting me free,

I grow like a flower, I'm as tall as a tree.
I begin walking, feet planted in the ground,
stumble upon myself, without making a sound.
Sad to see me, a sigh of relief;
lead me to the path, I've lost my beliefs.
Turning my neck to follow the sun,
I'm swallowed up and under the gun.
A pillow I'll need to rest these troubles,
they float away in this cup of bubbles.
Sorting through my salty sea, I kneel to God...
"Help rescue ME!"
The madness swirls overhead,
I'll make this sandy patch my bed.
Apollo is on my face and Mercury whispers in my ear,
"Steal the bull, live this life without fear!"
Body misshapen, weightless I rise,
feel like a cloud, can't control my size.
Where is the moon, I'm lost without the stars.
This sun is blistering, leaving his scars.
Peal my skin back, I'll find another,
repair this heart, a fire I can't smother.
Alas we have met, so many places I've searched,
may I rest upon your perch?
Together I sew my soul and flesh,
don't want to loose her, save me the distress.
Now I have answers to my questions unknown,
I know it's right, I can feel it in my bones.
This Journey I've been on, so many call life,
has left it's scars, and mental strife.
Saved from myself with help from no other,
only God can take what none can smother.

Giacomo

Smiles and joy filled the air,
together everyone met, for a great pair.

Laughter was carried on every sound,
little did I know, my soul you found.

Together we danced that night,
you knew it was time, gave it no fight.

Watching your soul leave this plane,
My heart sank and my mind went insane.

No help could I offer, heart raced with pain,
how much of this am I to attain?

Choking on my sadness, holding back the tears,
as the minutes passed, I was filling with fear.

Every laugh I played like a tape,
every smile I wouldn't let escape.

I prayed to God, let his big heart beat,
we all need him, he knows nothing of defeat!

...he called for you, we had our last dance,
now the music stopped, everyone frozen in a trance.

....sitting in the window, just under the moon,
wondering why he took you, why'd you go so soon.

My cries he choose not to hear,
can't stop the sadness, can't hold a tear.

He wants to hear your laughter, have you by his side,
thought he'd send you back, over that great divide.

In the clouds he kept you, so far above my reach,
head in hands, wonder what lesson did he teach?

I hear your voice, it's carried in the breeze,
my heart stops and I buckle at the knees.

and so it is,

I walk this earth looking for what he has taken,
knowing in my heart it's forsaken.

My body feels what my eyes can't see,
how is this possible, how can it be?

And so I close my eyes...

Let the memory of you fill the room,
we dance on a cloud and this time it's under the moon.

Ecstasy

I'm lying here in bed, just me and my phone, no one to talk to, I'm all on my own.
Mental images arise, of you that's no surprise.
Remembering kisses so sweet, you got every man beat!
I'm breaking a sweat in pleasure, it's a lust I can't measure.
It's song that can't be sung, it's you wrapped around my tongue.
Release me of this pain, it's making me insane!
My body quivers at your touch, it's a guilty pleasure I lust soo much.
My heart begins to slow, and my body let's go....
In my ecstasy it was us, every second... was just...

He exits my soul!

Performing his ablutions, my world disappears.

Now with the wind to my back, I feel myself rising.
In a cognitive state, I am ridden with black dust.
As I try to preen the dust, we adjoin.
The fog begins to lift.
With ice in my veins, I am reborn!
My wings no longer a symbol purity,
now tipped with the ash of my fiery heart,
a phoenix has risen!
Tomorrow is mine!

My Lesson for the DAY ::::

People are chameleons, changing when they need too but underneath it all, they are green, and that never changes!

Whispers

In the whisper of the wind, I wait to hear you
I want to hear my name in the breeze,
and in the silence, I pick up the what's left.
Who will steal your soul in the silence, if not me...
Who will seal your soul with a kiss, if not me...
Memories behind my eyes play out,
Overwhelmed with sadness, how will I stop the
ache from tearing through my soul?
Where are standing and whom do you taste on your tongue?
My head is tired and my heart, marred.
When the sky opens up her heart,
who's name will you wait for in the wind?

Stop me from Falling

With the midnight sun taking it's rightful place,
in it's shadow we walked,
with your hand in mine...I fell
With trust in my heart and the rhythm of yours, we slept...I fell
Your arms wrapped tightly around me....I fell
Before the sun rose, I watched you sleep....I fell
I took your scent with me and with me it remains.
When the sun rose we kissed goodbye.
How did I let myself fall?

Spirit is amazing!

" I am what I am" said Popeye! So what are you?

I visited Lily Dale, a spiritualistic community in Chautauqua County, New York. When I had mentioned where I was visiting, I had received very different opinions and some facial expressions I could have done without.

I attended a guided meditation class hosted by one of the mediums. This was a different kind of guided meditation. Before we began she gave everyone in the class a small block of modeling clay. As she guided the meditation she told us to let spirit guide you, keeping your eyes closed, mold and shape your clay. When I opened my eyes, I was taken back by what I had made. Granted it's not fine art, however, having never sculpted before and being barley able to color in the lines, the picture above was my result. I let loose, let my mind and hands do the work. It was an amazing experience. So many people in the class had the same reaction, " did I make this? ".

Because I am a lover of nature, I also enjoyed all the scenery. It was peaceful and filled with flowers, green grass, butterflies, birds and a sense of serenity.

Truth is, believe what it is you need to. You can make your faces and pass your judgments, but all in all Lily Dale was beautiful. I enjoyed my day, and can't wait to visit again. If you are a nature lover and have an open mind, you will be greeted with smile and friendly faces.

I know what I am...comfortable with learning new things. Learning and listening with respect for what I am being taught.

What are you?

Tomorrow

The sound of your voice is pure adrenaline, running through my veins.
My rapid heart cannot grasp the thought of all that encompasses you.
With few words that speak, my day is fulfilled, yet I yearn for more.
The day we meet again is fast approaching.
My senses are heightened as the hours pass.
Your gentle voice and sweet touch is what I long for.
I can only hope to see me the the windows of your soul,
for when you look into mine, there you shall be.

Alone...

To the man who haunts my very core,
Lover everlasting is what you promised!
I'm a captive in your heart, seduced by your voice and tender touch.
My eyes can only see you, my flesh craves only your mouth.
With one sultry look, I am lost in eternity seeking only you.
Then the sun rises,
I am awaken by the light, I can hear your voice,
feel your touch and yet you are no where to be found!
Return to me my King of the Night, for I am your Queen!

in another life we....

Who is this man who has awakened my soul with one simple touch...
As we great, I float in a bubble of confusion.
I follow the sound of his voice as if I were a lost child being called.
He consumes every part of my conscious mind, tantalizing my every thought.
I crave his touch and taste his skin.
His scent leaves me hungry.
Just when I think in my slumber I will escape, I hear his soothing voice.
He calms my soul, follows me into my slumber,
with your scent on my flesh, your sweat on my tongue,
I am awakened by your touch, with my lips parting my tongue forms my name,
"it's nice to meet you, I'm Elmelinda."
In a cloud of confusion , I already understand that we must have already met.

Blue

My troubles lifted when the music starts.
It lifts me off the floor and I spin like a carousel, slow at first then faster!
My soul leaves my corpse and I am lifted towards the heavens.
I reach and touch the dark blue sky. I find a star to sit upon,
I watch my troubles fall.
Suddenly the music stops playing.
The carousel has stopped spinning.
When the troubles are all dropped, I am left to do nothing but weep.
Weeping so hard the mortals below think it's raining.
They all take pleasure in my sorrow.
They giggle and laugh at my tears.
I scream to the Gods to lift this Vail!
Oh when, when will this blue Vail be lifted?

Restless Tomorrow

I know where it is I came from.
I know where I have been.
I will never know tomorrow or what tomorrow brings.
Our eyes met and it's as if time stood still.
Though when we are together, time is quickly to pass.

I sit on the stairs and wait in shame lingering in our lust,
I hold myself back from trying to erase you from my mind.
I can taste your skin on my tongue,
I can feel your hands on my flesh.

Behind my eyes the tears hold steady.
I go to him, confused and disgraced by what I have done.
He looks and sees what you see, he feels what you feel.
He knows not of you.

I feel as if I'm in the endless run in the rain,
drowning in my own sadness.
So I sit on the stairs and wait, wait in shame and lingering with guilt.
Trying endlessly to compose myself,
for I'm faced now with a tomorrow and what today has brought to my tomorrow.

When the Sun dies

We walked in the shadow of the moon.
We had paradise beneath our feet.
Now I search for traces of his scent in the air,
amidst the trees, through the leaves,
searching for his sweet scent.
His eyes were the color of earth, awakening my soul,
and taking part of it with him.
Now I'm lost, lost in time trying to hold the pieces of our "lovers kiss".
I want to lie this restless head between his arms,
listen to the rhythm of his blood rushing as he takes away my sorrow.
But until then, every time the sun dies, I come to life.
Endlessly searching for our shadows in the moonlight.

Chango's Fire Author Ernesto Quinonez

I originally wanted to write about the book and talk about a great story that was written. I changed gears, it's a book that needs to be read. I'll admit it is not a feel good book by any means, however, you fall for every character! I also enjoyed this book because it is filled with diverse backgrounds and dabbles lightly in different sexual orientations. It is saturated with the Puerto Rican lingo and parental stereotypes, but that is not what kept me reading.....

This book very much peeked my curiosity for a religion/faith I know very little about. I respect all religions/faiths equally. No one religion or faith is right, it is only right when you fit the religion into your life. When suddenly everything come together and you feel at peace with the choice in the faith you have chosen to be a part of. In the book the father character states " I'm not like your mother, I respect that religion and know, because of Hector Lavoe, that that sh*t works!" It is astounding that people as a whole don't see that every religion/faith "works", if you believe, then doesn't it all work itself out, isn't that what faith is?

Through his characters, the all knowing "padrino", Papelito, and his student, the main character, Julio, I am left with wanting to understand what I don't know. Ernesto romanticized Santeria, giving me bits and pieces of facts, and now I'm craving for more knowledge.

I am a very open minded person, learning about a new religion and it's traditions are important. If you don't understand something then you fear it, or worse mock it, only making yourself look foolish and ignorant.

All in all, I was skeptical at first, I was turned off by the book initially; thinking it was one sided point of view through racial eyes, but it proved me wrong. Ernesto Quinonez did an excellent job. I put Chango's Fire down when I finished it, only wanting to read it again. Best of all an Author has planted a seed, a seed that from here, only I can grow and for this I thank him!

I wait....

I can fell him tracking me.
Feel his blood rushing as he finds my scent in the wind.
I hear his heart beating as he closes in.
I feel his cold fingers as he laces them through my hair.
I feel his cold breath on my neck and my body pulses with pleasure.
His lips caress my flesh and I am in pure ecstasy.
As I cry out in the pleasure of pain, I am awakened by my racing heart.
In the wind he whispers..." My Queen...one night, but not this night..",
and now, I wait.
Wait by the moonlight.