honeymoon

I watch as you  kindly poured the poison into my open wounds. 

 I drown in your misery, dizzy from calm you chaotically placed on my soul. 

 Already empty, I have no space left for your cunning words. 

 As I hit a high, I feel my heart bound with ache.

 Your tongue slices my shallow skin, bleeding what’s left. 

 I sit in silence wishing I had tears. 

 Numb to the pain, you continue to delicately please your tainted words.

 In the darkness I am left, broken and cold. 

 I have nothing left to give the officer when the gentleman has taken so much.

Your voice filled my empty, weak soul. 

Your trance like moves set the pace.

Always whisking me to your dark place.

Safe in your presence, I have no fears.

Our duet is harmonious yet lacks the tangibility of a song.

Your noteless beat makes its way into my heart.

You've learned the melody to my favorite song.

The serenade your eyes elude have me craving your every want.

My hands stumble across your skin.

I sing the song that wakes the restless dead. 

Every cord struck by the perfect starry sky.

 Let it fall on those who can hear the music of our moonlit nights.

Your lust filled lips quiet your tongue.

Suffocated by hunger and unquenchable thirst,

my heart gazes over the past.

Kiss my eyes and wish me well, 

help me to see past what could have been. 

Give me the strength to want sing...in a different duet. 

Paper Skin

He stands before me, he leans in,

His hand is warm against mine, we are heart to heart.

I wait in anticipation as his eyes follow my every move.

I'm lost in his words and crave his soft lips on mine.

Our bodies touching, innocently as we sit side by side.

laughter fills the space of curious minds.

He watches my lips as i speak.

His loaded eyes keep me guessing.

Scars begin to surface.

We separate.

Angel of silence passes,

tongues of lust are taken,

replaced by soft eyes and hard skin.

I can feel the cold rise from his bones.

We try to pack silence with words.

tongues of fire ignite, 

the sound is obscured by the tension in his eyes.

Our wine stained lips offer courage.

As his hand touches mine,

excitement races through my veins. 

our faces meet...

he sits back, a cloud of smoke leaves his lips and mine,

we watch as the temptation rises. 

this paper doll skin waiting for a rip...

Drift away...

There's always a small ache, 

My heart hurts with every beat.

In my minds eye I see him holding his baby girl,
Smile filled with love.

Hands full with his only real joy...

She's two now...

I see her as he rocks her to sleep. Tiny hands wrap his fingers.
He can't help but love.

She's six now...

Her eyes light up when "daddy" leaves her lips and with that bold name he puts all her fears to rest.

I see him as he rocks her, little arms around his neck, little legs hang by his waist, and her brunette head rests under his fingers as he strokes her hair. 

She's 18 now....

I see her as he holds her head, her face filled with tears,
"He broke my heart dad,"
he caresses her hair;  his arms are her shelter and her hurt is put to rest. 

I see her tell me she loves him, 

her smile is filled with promise, 

"I'm getting married...." 

I see him filled with fear; he has to let his little girl go.

A bond that only god could create, I've broken. 

A bond only man could complete, I've taken away. 

Heal my helpless soul…I'm forever at your mercy.

taken what's mine

Heavy is the evening fog as it creeps over my aching heart.

Where are you going and where have you been? 

Wet cold rain hits her slumbering eyes, refreshing as she wakes.

Where are you going and where have you been?

Her warm breaths meet the cold air.

Where are you going?

The morning hits her and softly lights her bare skin.

Where have I been?

The wet earth beneath her soils the peach flesh.

Where am I going?

Cold air enters her lungs bringing the frozen corpse to life.

Where have I been?

You've taken all I am.

Where am I going?

You've changed all that i'll be.

Where have I been?

Pieces of me seep in to the black earth.

Where am I going?

The rain sets in and I am born again. 

Slow to rise. 

I gather flowers in sadness to wish the pieces of me a fare well. 

You've ruined and filled me with madness I can't leave behind. 

Where am I going?

Swimming Within

                                                         

Tired of being lost in skin,

a lifetime together and I still can't seem to make it fit.

My brain can process but this body won't react.

It's as if the world has fallen on my deaf ears. 

I've counted how many times the sun has mades its way across the sky,

i'm still, all I can do is watch. 

I'm tired of weathering this demon within. 

I'd rather see red than have the calm of a thousand storms. 

I'm itchy in this numb skin, too tired to tear through it.

It's begin to fester and I can't breathe. 

i feel this skin begin to rip.

quickly i stitch...

i'm lost in this skin...

I'll have to make it fit. 

Whispers in the Dark

I've combed myself into his veins.

I've smeared my love soaked lips on his. 

It is my flesh under his palm to his fingertips.

I'm the poison in his veins and the venom on his tongue.

I am the restless beast that lays dormant within. 

My Demons have turned his heart cold.

Under the stars i've lost him.

In the moonlight, he is unseen.

My tears are the acid rain that have destroyed my only Rock. 

  In the orchard of our love,

he harvested heartache and pain. 

My body aches with fear, 

the torment swims within me. 

I am a soldier of love and he's a prisoner in my heart. 

shed from within

Trying to escape my mind, sweating with fear,

twisting and turning as the sheets tangle.
Wanting to rip my skin with my fingers,
i have no where to hide.
my heart seeps with loneliness.
not feeling whole i reach for your warm body,
the cold pillow greats my sorrow, i weep into the night.
breathless i suffocate under your palm.
i tell myself someday it will all be gone.
when your poison entered my veins i was eternally addicted.
unable to relieve the grief, hating myself for every tear,
unable to run i am crippled by love.
I watch the nights shadow dance around me from under the moon.
my heart falls silent and i fall to my knees.
I can see the pieces of your soul you have long forgotten.
you speak to me with a cryptic tone, words riddled and confused.
the love wrapped tongue is swallowed by your hate.
relentless i return for more pain, i love all that is you.
how long will you step on my blooming roses?
how long will you steal the scent from the fresh fallen rain?
i shed my skin, curl to my side, hold my cold pillow tight,
the air is filled with cries of sadness as i pass your name through my teeth.
i rememer the star i wished for you upon, i remember our first kiss.
slowly coddled by my saddens, i drift off, shedding my pain from within.

Surrender

on the edge of this earth, the sea watches me.
A sheet of white binds to my clean flesh.
i stand in the wind, i wait.
buried deep within, i have set fire
to dreams that will never be.
alone, i wait for the moonlight.
naked in thought, the crisp white sheet
holds all my emotions captive.
I have nothing left.
my body aches from the cold,
my mind races to find the pieces of what I once was.
"Rid me of this pain!"
I cry out to God,
" where is my salvation?"
Soulless i look the skies.
I am calm in the dead of night.
on the cool earth i sit and wait.
to deafen the sounds of ludicrous mouths,
i've left no trail.
no skeletons remain,
i've left nothing for the blind eye.
I rise, awaken by the night.
i slowly come undone.
my flesh finds comfort in the midnight sun.
i watch as the sheet is carried on the breeze,
slowly lost to the ocean.
i can breathe....
with the moonlight on my back,
nothing keeps me captive.
salvation, i shall find.
but for this night, i have surrendered.

Worn Heart

The man with Christ within him,
a dark eyed phantom who has taken a piece of me.
He binds my tongue with unspeakable passion.
He showers me with roses as he places his crown of thorns.
My heart seeps with the agony of his defeat.
His sweat still on my flesh as I wake.
Iron on my my lips still warm from his sharp tongue.
"...sing to me" he whispers under his breath,
never letting his words escape his impenetrable heart.
His bitter sweet drug creeps into my veins.
You're forever an appetite for a tasteless pallet never quenched.
My hand rejects the ink filled pen that pours my soul in tears.
Another love filled verse wrapped around my tongue,
waiting to leave my warm sweet mouth.
I wonder if your tongue is swollen with the passion of our "lovers kiss?"
You wrap yourself in your cloak of knight,
as I drift off; the fire of the Sun dances on the horizon.
Slowly she creeps and fills the sky.
The rain quiets the sun, the dark sky quiets the light.
Meet me, my worn heart waits by the moonlight.

through the blurr

I watch this man though a see of blue;
a see of blue he has given me.
My protector;
Life was his gift and I have nothing to give in return.
My greatest fears he shields me from.
I search for his face in the crowd.
It is through his see of blue that I can conquer the most darkest of evils.
His wants are few,
His dreams are never spoken,
His words, aren't many but are always precise and powerful.
He works quiet and methodically,
He is a pillar of strength,
His worries unspoken.
Never boasts and praises never sought.
He is the calm of all my storms.
If in this life I can be half of what he is,
I would only be half way there.
He is Domenico.
And I'm forever his little girl.

Untamed Heart

It runs deep and fast in her red sea of DNA.

It tells the tale of a woman that can not be saved.
She will fill you with unfailing support.
Fail her and the strife of her smart tongue can cut your very soul and you'd savor every word!
She possesses a scent will make you thirsty for her flesh.
One taste and the memory of her is ineradicable.
Her form...forbidden, unless she relishes for yours.
A dark soul always craving to take part in the unknown.
A powerful beating heart not afraid of tomorrow.
Heed your thoughts of changing this beautiful beast,
she runs deep and cannot be tamed.
The essence of her sweet passion can bring a raging fire within your bones,
only to be smothered by her embrace.
heed the warning....
for what awaits is the abyss of misery to desire the unquenchable,
no vindication can be sought.
Let the fantasy fall faint at your feet,
you will not rise from the memory of her touch.

July

The man without a face has devoured my soul.
I watch him fall into my dream,
watch as his chest rises and falls as he takes his silent breaths.
I want to kiss those sleeping eyes and erase the pain within them.
I want to fall into his soul and ease the heartache within.
All the sleepless nights of longing for his face close to mine;
dreaming of a place where time is lost.
Where we become one breath, one beat, one movement,
one flesh; indistinguishable and melting into one another.
A passion so intense my soul has seen heaven and returned.
The taste of sweet innocence and confusion dissipates with our lovers kiss.
Your scent clings to the fibers of my soul.
I search for your skin on this night,
only to be greeted by my own.
The man without a face slowly takes his place in my shadow.
As the pale moon finds her place in the sky, he begins to take shape.
The air is filled with the cold night.
My foolish hands stumble across your smart face, palms outline the shape;
my fingers fill in all the details my heart wishes I could forget.
I touch your lips and wish them to be mine forever.
Slowly your features fade, my teeth cage the tongue that wishes to scream out your name.
The scull of the moon seems weightless in the sky.
I sit with the cold wind, we discuss the night.
I watch in vain as this love floats of a breeze.

Take Me Home....

Lights flash and my body moves to the music,

I feel the fierceness of the ocean, my hips are like waves.
I can't control my body, it moves to your beat.
I look up at eviL and I'm lost in the rhythm Live creates.
Record for record the music enters your veins!
Now I'm drowning in your musical ocean, I'm lost in the sea of dancers.
Behind your eyes, I can see the pieces that make up me.
You have pierced my impermeable heart, burring yourself in my warmth;
loosing my soul to your kiss, the stars are complete in my sky.
Underneath your feet, heaven moves.
When the sun dies we come to life and in the moonlight,
I am resurrected by the sweet fragrance that is your flesh.
As we walk in the shadow of the moon,
paradise is beneath our feet.
You are etched forever in my eyes.
I can see you with my palms,
these mental scars of love will never fade.

unable to comprehend

the lovers' yearning has ceased.

as I light my cigarette, questions float on the clouds,
the world is made up of shadows that dance in the crisp air;
laughter is carried on the breeze.
The moon has spoken on this night,
he's dropped his modest veil.
i tell my pillow lies, and she whispers them into my dream.
blackness from within creeps up my throat.
I try to speak, but love suffocates my tongue.
You smother me with your kiss,
our tumultuous passion echos in the wind.
the colors of our souls melt into one,
my life's breath finds refuge in your heart.
Committing this sin, i obliterate myself.
The world is naught; seeking triumph
in our love song.
Lover, i whisper in ecstasy;
hide me in your dreams, and keep me...
in your memories.

walk on water

rip out these veins of sadness, that are deep within me.
rid me of her cancer, she eats away at my soul.
i'm drowning in the blood of this evil,
open me up, let it drain.
let the vicious circle gather round me,
let the words tainted with sorrow flow out my icy veins.
let my flesh be painted blu,
let the disdain in my heavy heart dissipate.
when it's over, i'll want to shed my skin,
i'll want to be someone else.
when i wake, let me be somewhere else.
let the scars be faint.

i can't wash you from my skin,

i can't erase you from under my fingertips.

i can't wipe away the kiss,

i can't rid the scent of us from under my nose.

unsatisfiable quench of desire.

i've come undone yet forever bound

Journey

Sitting on the edge of the moon
lost in the fog of life,
nothing seems easy,
nothings seems right.
Now the waves are around me,
I'm swallowed by my sea,
I become a bird, and now I fly free.
With the touch of his hand,
my wing he's clipped,
from who's cup of life do I now sip?
Spill me out to find myself,
I'm a frozen puddle on this ice shelf.
Drip by drip I'm gaining ground,
where have I been? who have I found?
Incessant cycles, what have I done,
I've lost myself, is this fun?
With the ground beneath my feet, I run,
where did the moon go? Where is the sun?
My blood is rushing, I can't catch my breath!

Why am I chasing me and where is Death?
Into me, Death breathes life.
I tear my skin, cut the rest out with her knife.
Back on earths plane is where I must be,
Lamenting the pain, how much can one life stain?
In a Neptunian of people, lost in the beat,
dancing to the rhythm, can't stop my feet.
Untying my binding, he's setting me free,

I grow like a flower, I'm as tall as a tree.
I begin walking, feet planted in the ground,
stumble upon myself, without making a sound.
Sad to see me, a sigh of relief;
lead me to the path, I've lost my beliefs.
Turning my neck to follow the sun,
I'm swallowed up and under the gun.
A pillow I'll need to rest these troubles,
they float away in this cup of bubbles.
Sorting through my salty sea, I kneel to God...
"Help rescue ME!"
The madness swirls overhead,
I'll make this sandy patch my bed.
Apollo is on my face and Mercury whispers in my ear,
"Steal the bull, live this life without fear!"
Body misshapen, weightless I rise,
feel like a cloud, can't control my size.
Where is the moon, I'm lost without the stars.
This sun is blistering, leaving his scars.
Peal my skin back, I'll find another,
repair this heart, a fire I can't smother.
Alas we have met, so many places I've searched,
may I rest upon your perch?
Together I sew my soul and flesh,
don't want to loose her, save me the distress.
Now I have answers to my questions unknown,
I know it's right, I can feel it in my bones.
This Journey I've been on, so many call life,
has left it's scars, and mental strife.
Saved from myself with help from no other,
only God can take what none can smother.

Giacomo

Smiles and joy filled the air,
together everyone met, for a great pair.

Laughter was carried on every sound,
little did I know, my soul you found.

Together we danced that night,
you knew it was time, gave it no fight.

Watching your soul leave this plane,
My heart sank and my mind went insane.

No help could I offer, heart raced with pain,
how much of this am I to attain?

Choking on my sadness, holding back the tears,
as the minutes passed, I was filling with fear.

Every laugh I played like a tape,
every smile I wouldn't let escape.

I prayed to God, let his big heart beat,
we all need him, he knows nothing of defeat!

...he called for you, we had our last dance,
now the music stopped, everyone frozen in a trance.

....sitting in the window, just under the moon,
wondering why he took you, why'd you go so soon.

My cries he choose not to hear,
can't stop the sadness, can't hold a tear.

He wants to hear your laughter, have you by his side,
thought he'd send you back, over that great divide.

In the clouds he kept you, so far above my reach,
head in hands, wonder what lesson did he teach?

I hear your voice, it's carried in the breeze,
my heart stops and I buckle at the knees.

and so it is,

I walk this earth looking for what he has taken,
knowing in my heart it's forsaken.

My body feels what my eyes can't see,
how is this possible, how can it be?

And so I close my eyes...

Let the memory of you fill the room,
we dance on a cloud and this time it's under the moon.

Ecstasy

I'm lying here in bed, just me and my phone, no one to talk to, I'm all on my own.
Mental images arise, of you that's no surprise.
Remembering kisses so sweet, you got every man beat!
I'm breaking a sweat in pleasure, it's a lust I can't measure.
It's song that can't be sung, it's you wrapped around my tongue.
Release me of this pain, it's making me insane!
My body quivers at your touch, it's a guilty pleasure I lust soo much.
My heart begins to slow, and my body let's go....
In my ecstasy it was us, every second... was just...