shed from within

Trying to escape my mind, sweating with fear,

twisting and turning as the sheets tangle.
Wanting to rip my skin with my fingers,
i have no where to hide.
my heart seeps with loneliness.
not feeling whole i reach for your warm body,
the cold pillow greats my sorrow, i weep into the night.
breathless i suffocate under your palm.
i tell myself someday it will all be gone.
when your poison entered my veins i was eternally addicted.
unable to relieve the grief, hating myself for every tear,
unable to run i am crippled by love.
I watch the nights shadow dance around me from under the moon.
my heart falls silent and i fall to my knees.
I can see the pieces of your soul you have long forgotten.
you speak to me with a cryptic tone, words riddled and confused.
the love wrapped tongue is swallowed by your hate.
relentless i return for more pain, i love all that is you.
how long will you step on my blooming roses?
how long will you steal the scent from the fresh fallen rain?
i shed my skin, curl to my side, hold my cold pillow tight,
the air is filled with cries of sadness as i pass your name through my teeth.
i rememer the star i wished for you upon, i remember our first kiss.
slowly coddled by my saddens, i drift off, shedding my pain from within.